Let's start with the good....
My wife and I saw the new Star Wars movie. I'm not sure what people are expecting out of these...They are at their heart some corn-gold, feel good movies that are throw-backs to the past. I mean, even George Lucas said as much about the original Star Wars.
I found it enjoyable. But here is the key....When I walk into any sci-fy movie, I put my reality down and just enjoy the ride. I don't watch movies like a critic, because to be honest, I feel critics have lost the ability to have fun. They want so hard to find a perfect movie, that they simply have become immune to the idea of enjoying something for what it is. They are always wanting it to fit some small shoe-horn of what they believe a perfect movie should be. They've completely left earth on this and are simply denying themselves of some simple pleasures.
Was this a perfect movie (not sure what that actually means)...probably not. Did it actually feel like a Star Wars movie....yes! How many times will I watch this...well, the last movie I saw twice in a theater was Guardians of the Galaxy...I'm not sure this will do the trick. I saw it with my wife for the first time, so I'm not sure why we should pay $20 a piece to see it again in a theater. I will buy it when it comes out on streaming and will watch it again, but in the comfort of my own house.
That being said...I watched NetFlix's masterpiece "The Irishman" on Netflix as well. I thought it was great, but I will not spend another three hours to watch it again.
My rating for Star Wars....If you actually like Star Wars...go watch it and have some good pop-corn fun. If you are a critic who likes to poo-poo everything that doesn't make some big statement....stay far, far away.
Now to the not so good. Had my first appointment with an oncologist today (er...yesterday, it's now 2:50am)....my cancer is classified as stage 4. Big up-hill battle and to be honest, I don't think cancer truly understood who it picked a fight with. This might have been the worst decision it ever made. There is no way I'm not going to go down slinging. My wife is more broke up than I am about this diagnosis. I'm not a praying kinda guy....I left the church in my teens and have never seen a reason to go back. I do believe in the power of positive thoughts though...simply because I think good attitudes are key to developing success. So if y'all feel so inclined, I'm sure my wife could use any good thoughts you have. I wouldn't hate them, but I've already got a fighters disposition, so I'd say don't waste them on me...give them to her. She needs them more than me.
At some point, we'll have to re-evaluate how I'm reacting to treatment and while I remain determined to beat this shit, I'm worried of the toll it will take on her if I can't. When that point comes, I'm going to have to spend an extraordinary amount of time and effort in trying to teach her how to live without me...how she should move on and if at all possible, find love once again. We are only in our 40s. She's going to have a long, long time left and I really don't want her being stuck in time if this comes to pass.
I'm sorry this seems so heavy. Please, feel free to ignore me if it brings you trouble. Some times, I just need an outlet to type what is going on in my head and I would appreciate feedback. This is uncharted territory for me.
I kinda feel like I shouldn't even be bringing this up in this webforum and maybe I should go to one that is geared towards folks with cancer....but f*** it...I really don't want to be defined by this. I'm not just some dude with cancer. I'm a hockey nut who loves the Avs, music and movies.
Let me know though, because I will certainly cool it if these types of posts brings y'all down. I am capable of keeping these two sides separate and able to stick to hockey and humor only here if that is best.