Please respect that I won't talk about the news but any feedback would be great. I don't intend on self medicating myself but I'm just worried about my reaction and looking for feedback. It's entirely possible the shock is very hard for me to deal with but I still need to see someone because I can't do much in my current state. Thanks.
Dude, I feel your pain. I've been dealing with panic attacks for almost 20 years. I could almost write a book about it.
Here is some quick advice but feel free to PM me if needed:
- Stay away from family doctors or the ER. Most doctors there don't understand anxiety and will make you feel like you are weak and stay stupid stuff like "get over it" or "chill out".
- Get a complete physical. If you have anxiety, it's actually comforting to know that all your vitals are ok.
- Get a referral for a counselor or some specialist who understands anxiety. Ask or try your best to assess if that specialist is a "pill pusher". I've been able to survive that long without pills. I'm not saying it's bad, it may even be a good thing to take the edge off right now. All I'm saying is that some doctors have a "pill first" mentality and you sound like me and want a pragmatic approach.
- It may sound too easy an answer when you feel like you've lost control of your body but all you need is to TALK and reduce stress in your life. Your post was a good 1st step. Keep reading this thread and talk to people who understand what you are going through.
- Tell people who cause you unnecessary stress to GTFO. Surround yourself with happy, positive people. Stop watching the news. It's depressing and you learn nothing anyway.
- GET OFF THIS SITE! Seriously, at least take breaks. Some posters just antagonize and you don't need that. If you're addicted, put as many threads on your ignore list as possible.
- In case I wasn't clear: positive, positive, positive. You're in survival mode and should move all the negatives out of the way. That friend who makes you cringe? Don't return his calls or emails.
- Stay active. Anxiety makes you feel like you are inside the space station with nowhere to go. You need to increase your physical activity.
- You may start to fear certain situations like flying, crowds, etc. DO NOT avoid those situations. Actually, once you feel in better control of your anxiety, make an effort to get on a plane or whatever you now fear. All those small victories will help you get back to a normal life.
Anyway, so much more I could say but gotta run now.
Stay strong and realize there are millions of us out there and don't be ashamed to talk about it.