Union's performance over the past five years does make me question if they've all just been a dream...cause the way things are going, we're going to win a treble or two before the decade is through
Unfortunately I've gotten too familiar with death over those same 5 years. Lost a sister & grandfather before my dad, while watching my mom suffer a stroke and my grandmother go in & out of the hospital...with the other having passed 7 years ago now.
Still really sucks, today is the 1 year anniversary and it's hard not to picture him on that hospital bed. Glad I got those extra 20 years with him, because the Cleveland clinic almost killed him when I was a teenager, but that only takes some of the edge of the pain :-/
But yeah, I'm already dreading the winter because I'll desperately miss the peace I feel on my bike rides
Especially cause I usually ride either along the bike path my dad used to take once he finally started taking care of himself, or the one along the lake that he & I used to skate along when we first came to the US.
Mate, I'm sorry to hear that. BUT what I WILL say, is they were all obviously very lucky to have someone like you in their lives. Someone loving, dedicated and loyal. I hope I've had people like you remembering me when I go to Valhalla (so to speak). Be proud of you, you legend !!!
I've had a similar experience, mate. My biological mother (brain aneurysm), father (cancer), brother (motorbike accident) all died within 3 years of each other.
I was actually taken from my family very young though, because my father tried to kill me, and I was raised by my Aunt / Uncle (Aunt now has late stage cancer - and will die soon - one of the VERY rare people I've loved). My uncle doesn't talk to me, because he blames me for their marriage breakup - inheriting a 10 year old kid odd WOULD have been hard. My father, uncle, and mother's partner (all 3 men) used to bash me as a kid too, which didn't help me.
In the past 3 years, I've had a falling out with lifelong friends (married couple), who are very bullying & mean (the woman used to try and kiss me and things, it was messed up), so they have a lot of sway over the rest of our group (who I considered family). - they decided that no-one should continue talking to me or my wife, and they all deleted us - all our lifelong friends, because of fear from Keith and Louise. Kinda sucks hehe, but what can I do? Easiest thing is to just let them all go if they aren't willing to make an effort for us
And they did this, while I was getting completely effed around at work. I was a commercial investment banker - the pressure, and stress for results is something people wouldn't believe - to the point they pushed unethical practices across the line to get deals done, so I broke down, and just left (now I work for the government body who polices them ! It's the best thing that's ever happened, and I'm so happy !!!!!!). Accountability man !! And guess what, I now get to help Australian families remain in their homes and/or make ends meet when Banks do the wrong thing !! It's so rewarding.
I literally get so, so lonely now, I suffer actual physical pain from it. I don't even really go outside if I can avoid it. People/ humans give me anxiety. My home gym has become my best friend haha. That, or playing squash, kayaking, or doing my weekly 10km uphill run in 55 minutes at the actual gym.
BUT, that's what is so amazing about this team of ours hey? The absolute joy and happiness they provide us. This amazing community. The release they give us. AVS are so much more than just a sport to me. They are my passion and therapy, which is why I get so behind them, like they do for me. I know my positivity annoys people, and I try and tone it down as much as possible, but that's literally why I am like I am.
Sorry about the length of my post, the main reason I'm sharing is because I want to say I empathise and have actually thought about you since reading your first post, and was hoping you'd reply to me. We are a community my friend, and we are in this together. Best fans on planet earth. If you EVER need anyone to talk to, hit me up, el buderino.
That same offer goes for anyone else who may be feeling alone or depressed. I can tell you about all our deadly creatures in Australia ready to get ya, if you come by hahaha.