9/22/17
FEAR NOTHING! That's our battle cry. I think Alex Goligoski likes me.
Orientation was pretty cool. Wasn't into it at first. Mom and Dad kind of made me go. Said it would make moving to Arizona much easier. Meeting more people my age. I guess. I kind of zoned out when they were talking about the team "vision." The coaches on the team made a lot of sense. We have all these fears and anxieties that weigh us down. That trap all our special potential. Sounds kind of flaky... but they made it sound good. Staying here for a while might be cool after all.But... no internet yet. So, I'm blogging on a notepad like a savage. I'm so retro!
P.S. - people in Arizona don't seem to like to show their open mouths when they laugh.
9/25/17
Turns out, NO INTERNET AT ALL! The coaches say they're giving our minds a break from outside pressure. "Purging conditional social validation." Or something like that. Argggh! How do I keep in touch with anyone from here? How do I set my status? Oh well. Maybe it'll be good for me? Guess I'll just keep "blogging" on this book. All the players here are really nice, at least.
10/1/17
Coaching session was good. Realised today that people put all these fears on me. The bullies in Florida, with their names. The coaches with their tests and punishments. The media with all of those hateful stories. Even my parents. They add all that weight to me. I have to let them go. Let them all go. I think I'm ready.
10/11/17
Oh God! I want to go home. I want my parents. I want my mom. I think they're planning to kill themselves. I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE! They never say it, not straight out. They just smile. They're always smiling! They say things like "The Great Coming Together" and I think it's all about suicide. It's happening soon. What the hell is this place? Can't find my phone. They just walk around like nothing's wrong. Smiling.
10/12/17
I feel better today. Rich Tocchet explained it all to me. Last night's panic. That was just the last of the fear evacuating. All that fear I was trained to feel. To worry. To worry that I'm not worrying enough. I'm done with all that. I'm ready now. Letting go of the fear is one step. Letting go of everyone who gives you the fear is another. But you have to let go of everything human. That's the next step. Going to shed this gross body. Going to be graceful. The team has failed. It needs a reboot. Nothing to be sad about. It's the Great Coming Together. There's nothing to fear. Alex Goligoski said he would lie next to me.
-Jason Demers, contributor
Brendan Perlini - Derek Stepan - Tobias Rieder
Clayon Keller - Max Domi - Christian Fischer
Zac Rinaldo - Christian Dvorak - Nick Merkley
Jordan Martinook - Brad Richardson - Nick Cousins
Oliver Ekman-Larsson -
Jakob Chychrun -
Kevin Connauton - Luke Schenn
Antti Raanta
Scott Wedgewood
Alexander Ovechkin - Nicklas Backstrom - Tom Wilson
Jakub Vrana - Evgeny Kuznetsov - TJ Oshie
Brett Connolly - Lars Eller - Andre Burakovsky
Chandler Stephenson - Jay Beagle - Alex Chiasson
Dmitri Orlov - Matt Niskatnen
Brooks Orpik - John Carlson
Christian Djoos - Madison Bowey
Braden Holtby
Phillip Grubauer
If we lose, I'm blaming @kbay .
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